When Death sends you an Invite

I have been really depress over the last month, the world came crushing down on me and I just couldnt get myself over it.

A big question hit me during my depress state and I was wondering if you could help me by letting me know what you think below is a story that I would like you to read and give me your views :

If you know that you have just a few months to live ... what would you do?

Mr John Doe went to a doctor for what he thought was just a normal persistent headache. Just hoping to get some medicine/pain killers that would keep that pounding feeling at bay. After some examination the doctor asked John to go for a full medical examination. The results were shocking ...

John Doe was actually in the final stages of Liver Cancer. He has (base on 2nd and 3rd opinion) about 3 - 6 month to live before he dies like his father before him.

John wasnt a person that feared death, John was only worried about the people he loved. The most important person to him at that point was his girlfriend, Mary. They were in love and was thinking of getting married in 2 years time. However, John would not be around by then.

John made a decision(one that many people would not agree with), he decided that he would break up with Mary. Doing so, she would not know that he was dying and dont have to suffer his pain with him. She was also to continue with her life; find someone else that would take care of her have kids and basically have a chance in life that John wasnt given. In years to come, she would just remember John as her ex-boyfriend and the great times they had together, probably hate him for breaking up without a reason ... but a chance at having many happy years. Being a beautiful and intelligent woman on earth with a great passion for life - she has no lack of suitors, John could not drag her on when he know that death is already reaching his doorstep.

Time passes .... Mary is celebrating her birthday with her new boyfriend, John is now just a blured memory and she hardly thinks about him anymore. A knock on the door and a delivery man was there with a bunch of Tulips (Mary favourite flowers) and a letter sealed in an envolope.

"Dearest Mary,

I am so sorry for just dissappearing out of your life but I did not know how else to do it. By the time you read this letter I will no longer be around. I found out that I have liver cancer and it was in the last stages where there was nothing the doctors could do. I only wanted the best for you baby, and I do not want you to see me on my deathbed. I know how bad a person dying of cancer can look (my father died of liver cancer as well) and I do not want you to see me like that.

I hope our memories together can bring some joy to you once a while. Just remember that I really love you and want the best for you.

I do remember that I made a promised to you when we first dated and I told you then that I would do my utmost in making it happen. I have made a final will that upon my death all my assets would be transfered to a trust fund which will be use to set up your dream - music for everyone. That is my last gift for you on your birthday. My only regret in life is I am not able to see you perform on stage for me as I have dreamt of before.

Yours forever (forever is possible)
John Doe"
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Do you think John made the right choice? or Should he just live he last days with Mary
I have thought about it and both ways I thought of John being insensitive and selfish. If he spend his last months with Mary, he would centainly love it but Mary would suffer. The choice he made was also selfish for not letting Mary choose.